Sunday 26 August 2007

Ctrl+R (Refresh)

School starts tomorrow. I am depressed. I love learning-but how we convey learning makes me dread learning. I hate this routine way we teach, review, test. It just shouldn't be. But I will not let it get to me. I want to learn things, and I shouldn't bother myself with the burden of tests. But I will change everything I perceived myself as in sophomore and freshman year. This isn't a slump no more, it is a comeback.

Let me reintroduce myself:
My name is Michael.
I care what people think, and I am proud of it.
I can lift myself up.
I am constantly working harder to get myself out of Walnut.
I am not who you thought I was, or who I was yesterday.
This is the first day of the rest of my life.
I have reincarnated mentally and emotionally.
I am afraid because I don't know my future, but I am going to make it how I want it to be.
Let's push things forward. Let's deny the past. Let's refresh.

Wednesday 22 August 2007

Random

We move fast convincing our selves we need to be somewhere on time (physically and mentally). In reality, we move fast so we don't have to think of a purpose for this destination.

Sunday 19 August 2007

180 Minutes (time flies)

As of 15:58, I have had the house to myself. I have 180 minutes of time of solitude before the my parents (the bane of my existence) come back from LAX with my relatives. During this time, my goal is to do as much disobeying as possible due to the bitch my dad was when he left. As of right now I am in safe mode for possible turn-arounds from parents. This mode ends until 16:10 and then I can enjoy sanity for a while.

Friday 17 August 2007

Teenagers

This summer, was very static for me. No cultural epiphanies. No spiritual gains. Just a blank period of time. However, there was one thing that made my summer have a twinkle. That, my friends, is "Homecoming" by the Teenagers. I honestly don't know where to start. OK, lets begin with the video. The video gives off a "Virgin Suicides"-esque feel that was sponsored by what seems like American Apparel. In my opinion, the video hits that teenage feel right on target- with the fluffy rooms, the girls jumping on the beds and enjoying a pillow fight. It is practically MTV ready. Now to the song-the intro hooked me in somehow. The drunken down tempo which is slightly generic is given a distinguished feel. I even have an appreciation to the lyrics which so the point of view to both characters- and shows what the average teenage boy and girl are like. Thank you, the Teenagers.

Wednesday 8 August 2007

The Fly

There is a fly in my room that is the size of a fucking cadillac escalade. It only seems to make noise when I am in deep thought. When I am running on my treadmill, there it is. While I am reading, there it is. WHEN I AM SLEEPING, THERE IT FUCKING IS! JFKDSJKSDLFJKLSDFJLKSD.
I want to sleep dammit! Fuck flies. Fuck each, individual, motherfucking maggot that will morph into a fly.



As you can tell, I am not a morning person. Well, a "have to wake up at one o' clock because of an obnoxious bug" person.

Sunday 5 August 2007

The Great Escape

I need to get out of Walnut. I hate living here so much. I hate everything about Walnut. It's filled with naive people who don't know what it is like to have a homeless man cuss you out for not saying bless you. People who don't know what drugs do to you. People who are attached to credit cards. Hell does not consist of minions, fire, and the traditional biblical description. Hell consists of track housing from the 70's and 80's, the village, mustangs, mercedes, and tutors. I can not stand this place. It is torture to make me live here.